Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Missing You

No matter what happens in life, time passes us by.  Even though life events can be traumatic, grueling or heart-breaking, it seems like the passage of time goes by faster than we think it possibly can.  At this time, it is hard for me because at this same time last year, my family and I had made a decision to let my dad off of life-support after he suffered a massive heart attack, leaving him with little-to-no higher brain function.  There are some things that get deeply etched in to your thoughts and memories; for me, the memory of my dad on life-support is completely ingrained into my mind.  To remember how his body looked as the ventilator did the most basic function for him, breathing, still disturbs me because of the unnaturalness of it.  To remember the feelings and emotional expressions of my mom, my sister, my two brothers, and my half-brother as we all crowded around my dad's hospital bed still brings up a deep felt sadness that some days I don't feel as deeply as today.  As redundant as it is for a Mormon girl to state, "I can find comfort in the knowledge that I WILL see my dad again" makes me realize that my dad's death was and is a testimony builder for me; cliche or not.  It makes me realize that I do have a choice: to continue my progression of moving forward as my dad and my Heavenly Father want me to, or become bound and imprisoned by sorrow and grief.  Don't get me wrong, there is plenty of sorrow and grief, but I realized I am in charge and I can choose to take the attitude that I can do hard things and I can learn from this experience.  Thich Nhat Hanh states that "A life that is too comfortable will make spiritual growth difficult."  This experience has taken me out of my too-comfortable life. I need this spiritual growth.  I love you Dad and miss you a great deal. I truly hope that you and others that have passed-on before us are praying for those you left here on Earth; that us mortals may be able to "grow-up" spiritually!

Sunday, December 1, 2013

Monday, November 18, 2013


This sunset is lovely (although my iPhone doesn't do it justice!)

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

I Want that Guitar

Hendrix LOVES this guitar and wants me to get it down for him so he can play with it. Maybe one day!

Puppet Show

Marley and Grace got out the finger puppets and put on a little show for me.  Although the plot line was a bit on the loose side, it was fun to watch!

Dog Kennel

Hendrix LOVES Oscar and apparently, wants to sleep where Oscar does as well!!

Monday, November 11, 2013

Marley and Savy

Marley decided it would be a great idea to pick up Savy. I have no idea why kids do this!

Snug as a Bug

Marley and Grace like to take our master bed pillows and make a "nest" out of them.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

"Teensy Diapers"

Grace still wears night-time diapers.  She would probably not wear any but I am too tired with Hendrix waking up all the time to go in to make sure Grace uses the bathroom in the middle of the night. 
Grace came to me and said, "You have teensy diapers mom!" And then showed me an underwear liner!

Friday, November 8, 2013

Tantrum Time

Little Rascal Boy is throwing a tantrum...which although shouldn't be funny,  it does make me laugh!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Tantrum Time

Hendrix has entered the tantrum phase.  He has started throwing little tantrums and lying on the floor.  Although I should not think it's funny, it does make me laugh.  He is so cute!

Making a Fort

Marley's little friend, Hendrix came over to play.  They had such a great time making a fort/castle!

Day of Dentistry

I took Marley and Grace to their first real dentist appointment.  Prior to this, the dentist has just glanced at their teeth.  Now that I think about it, with Marley being 5, she probably should have had a more real appointment sooner.  Same with Grace I suppose.  Maybe that is why we left the dentist office with a future appointment to take care of cavities.  They each had two! Yikes!  They did so wonderfully, though.  Grace was an absolute champ and did everything she was supposed to without any crying! Marley was just as fearless!  What wonderful girls!!

Pick a Book, Any Book

Hendrix likes to be read to and I usually ask him to pick out a book that he wants to look at/read.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Spinning Around and Around

This little seat that spins around at the park is one of Hendrix's favorites.  He loves to spin and spin, around and around! What a gem treasure!!

Monday, November 4, 2013

Baby Feet

I went into Hendrix bedroom while he was napping and found his adorable little feet sticking out of his crib. So darn cute!!

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Weekend in Vegas

My high school friend, Necia, invited me and my other high school friend, Miranda down to visit her in Vegas so we could see Boy II Men.  We LOVED them when we were in high school and had seen them when they had come to the Delta Center in Salt Lake City.  It was such a great concert and I had a great time, but it was also kind of I really old enough to be nostalgic about a band I loved in high school?! What is up with that!!!

 Necia and one of her friends

 Miranda trying to eat rocks that have a bacon-esque look.

 These pictures of Miranda frantically digging through her purse made it in the post because we are about to drop off the rental car and fly home, and she can't find her driver's license!!  I tried to call the casino that we went to the night before and was about to call our hotel, when I started looking around the car.  Happily, I found it between the passenger front seat the the door.  Can't believe that it didn't fall out of the car somewhere!